ABOUT THE BOOK
LOSS TEAR
Loss Tear is about navigating the unthinkable — grieving a child’s death while rediscovering faith and purpose. Dr. Walter Banks invites readers into the raw immediacy of loss, describing in vivid, emotional detail the shock of that fateful day, the silence that followed, and the gradual, often painful path toward acceptance.
The narrative unfolds through 13 chapters, each representing a phase of the grieving process:
- Early chapters capture the trauma of loss and the surreal aftermath — claiming Caitlyn’s body, preparing for her funeral, and confronting the emptiness at home.
- Middle chapters blend memory and reflection — celebrating Caitlyn’s life, her faith, love for softball and pageantry, and her compassionate character.
- Later chapters explore spiritual wrestling and renewal — how anger, despair, and questioning God gradually evolve into renewed belief, therapy, and the healing power of community and shared grief.
Dr. Banks writes with unflinching honesty, acknowledging his doubts, anger at God, and moments of collapse, yet always circling back to faith as the enduring foundation. The book is more like a series of meditative journal entries than a linear narrative. Its goal is not to offer answers but companionship to others in pain — a message that healing, though slow, is possible when love and faith endure.
The Author
Dr. Walter Banks is a former baseball coach and a non-fiction writer. He spent over 35 years coaching High School and College baseball, instilling in his players not only the skills of the game but also the values of teamwork, sportsmanship, and perseverance.
Buy the Book
Loss Tear is a tribute to Caitlyn’s radiant life and to the transformative power of love and God’s grace in the face of unbearable tragedy.
